mreh

[canadiandiamond]

Having somewhat of a Molly Hooper day, as in feeling like I don't count. I've been asking myself 'why bother?' a lot lately for a bunch of different reasons too. Thinking about it further, I think it all comes down to this: I'm not a religious person at all, but I do try to follow what was taught to me in Sunday school as a kid as The Golden Rule: doing to others as you would have them do to you, though there are many different ways to put it I suppose. I don't follow it because I'm religious, or because it's what someone told me to do, I follow it because, well, that's how I'd want others to act as well. It's certainly not always what happens - both in the way people treat me and in the way I sometimes treat others, I'll be the first to admit - but it's what I aim for, I guess.

So, why bother? Because were the roles reversed I wouldn't want people to give up on me, or to treat me differently, or negatively, or what have you. So I can't change the way I act or behave just because it doesn't yield the results I want, I just have to keep trying.

I dunno, this may not make sense, but I've been having pretty big thoughts about this and other stuff lately. Getting it out into the world and into words helps me try to understand it better, I suppose.