Watched Super tonight which was way more violent than I thought it'd be. Not a bad movie, though, but I loved the actors in it (particularly Rainn Wilson and Ellen Page) so that helped colour my opinion of it as a whole, I think.

While watching it I played around in LOTRO, spending a lot of time working on crafting for a few of my characters, which... seems a bit futile now, I dunno. It was quiet all night while I did that, which is one of the reasons that's why I did, and just logged off now and people are showing up, starting to raid, people in glff are looking for people to do stuff, just as I have to go to bed. Well, actually, by my new recent attempts at a decent bedtime I should have been in bed over an hour ago, so that's even worse. But it felt good while I was doing it, like I was accomplishing something, so that's good, yeah?

Home alone tonight and for the next two weeks or so; the folks are off on their vacation, driving off somewhere. Mom called to check in earlier and they're about half way across the island, may make a run for Labrador it sounds like it. I know I usually just come right upstairs whenever I get home anyway so it shouldn't be a huge deal, but feels a little lonely around here, I dunno. Have tons of food, lots to do, so there's no need to, so I'm just chalking it up to the general feeling of crap making it seem that way or something.

Off to bed now, going to put on an episode of How I Met Your Mother before I drift off. Trying not to linger on a passing thought I had earlier today, which was that one year ago today I was so very happy compared to now, and instead am telling myself to think about where I'll be one year from today and how it'll be much better than it is right now. Also need to turn on the AC, it's stifling hot here in the room, even though it's not all that warm outside.

I've been so flighty lately, ugh. I randomly stumbled across a writing contest awhile back and keep meaning to sit down and put something together for it but every time I sit down at the computer I start something else instead. Lately it's been EVE Online as a distraction, but there's also LOTRO, messing around with C++, Facebook, Twitter, and of course the good ol' fashioned stand-by of just messing around on the internet.

Of course, the latter lead to me finding out about another local writing contest, but that one has a fee so I dunno. At any rate, if I'm going to do anything I need to just sit down and write already, ugh. Hoping to tonight for at least a little bit, if I can.

Speaking of writing, below the cut I've embedded some very awesome X-Project videos, one about the upcoming plot in our game and one general video, both made by one of our extremely talented members. Worth a check out, even if RP is not your kind of thing. :)

( X-Project videos below cut! )

*matches mood with icon!*

My left eye is twitching / throbbing a little bit, kinda hard to describe. It's not a good idea to try and self-diagnose this via Google, is it? Not late at night and being the hypochondriac that I am.

Crazy updates after not updating in ages ftw, y/n? >.>

[eta] Pretty sure now it's stress and/or staring at a computer screen way too darn much lately. And if it's not the PC it's the iPad, or the phone. Been trying to cut down on that anyway so all the more reason to do so now.

Subject line says it all, really. Just a mreh feeling lately, and nothing for it. Satellite radio nailed it when I got in the car this morning to drive into work and it was playing Soul Asylum's "Misery" - frustrated incorporated. Randomly, should listen to more of them, have an itch to put their Grave Dancers Union album on after work. Hmm.

Slowly getting things done in the office is helping, thankfully, and hopefully by the day's I'll have a lot of the small things that keep building up done and out the door. That'll be a big help, since a lot of that's been bugging me since I came back to work.

I still keep forgetting to finish that meme, but last night before the mreh set in and before going to bed I cleaned up my desktop (was such a mess, covered with icons, ugh) and weeded out the pictures I meant to use for it, so hopefully I can throw those up here soon and finish the darn thing once and for all, heh. XD

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( End of the meme! )

And so the long weekend draws to a close. It was a nice one indeed, very relaxing, right up until today when I went back into the office to catch up on a few things in the afternoon and had a minor panic attack when I realized something that (thankfully) turned out not to be as bad as it first seemed.

Friday and Saturday I basically just let myself forget about work and real life as much as I could by sinking into LOTRO as far and as deep as I've been in a long, long time. On Friday I worked until 7pm effectively, which was crazy, so I needed a good escape from reality. I found it for sure, staying up fairly late on Friday night and holy crap it's so damn late on Saturday night. My only break from the game, aside from sleep, was going to see The Other Guys with my sister and her boyfriend on Saturday night. It was pretty funny, though my sister hated it. But yes, lots of LOTRO, and lots of leveling and improving my character, which was nice. I've been slacking for awhile, or rather, I've been doing other things lately other than playing - watching Dr. Who, writing a little, reading, etc. - but this weekend let me catch up a little to believeitup and some other kinmates.

Sunday I hung out with my friend Shawn for the afternoon / early evening, which was nice too. We had a barbecue followed by watching a movie on my new tv in Salmon Cove. Such an awesome tv - we put a movie file onto a USB flash drive and just plugged that directly into the tv and it plays it, no player or anything required. Very awesome tv, I'm very satisfied with that purchase, I must say. :) Then I came home, met up with my wife, and played some more LOTRO. It was a later night than I'd planned for but still nice, and went to bed at a better hour than Saturday night, heh.

Today was up and down, kinda. I slept in, which was good, but went to work, did very little other than the minimum, and just before leaving I realized something that had to be done and freaked out, thinking it was a lot worse than it was. I called my boss, even, who confirmed that there was less to do than I first thought, so then I did what I had to do and now tomorrow I'll get my assistant to mail things out and it'll be ok, phew. Then I came home and have been chatting with my beautiful wife ever since, which was made me feel so, so much better, as always. ♥ Also watched some episodes of Supernatural while chatting, which has also been nice, as I picked up Season 5 last week. I'd downloaded a few eps while it aired but fell way behind, so now I can catch up.

With that, though, it's time to get ready for bed. Busy, busy week ahead, ugh, court all day tomorrow, appointments all day Wednesday (going to get my assistant to move some of those though or else I'll fall even more behind), and court on Thursday and Friday in the city, meaning either very early rises those mornings or traveling to the city the evenings before, then a friend's 40th birthday party in Burin so a big road trip this weekend. So off I go!

Hope everyone had a nice long weekend! :)

...as if I needed another reason to dislike you. Mondays in disguise, they are, especially today. I'm posting this rather hastily from the hotel lobby; I've checked out, as it were (the computers that handle that are down so they just took my key and will e-mail me a receipt later), and while there's no time limit on this free lobby computer there'll probably be some still-paying guests looking to use it soon. That and I should probably head out, I'll likely be heading into the office later this afternoon even though I really, really don't want to, ugh.

For those not in the know, believeitup flew out a little over an hour ago. It was an awesome trip, too short but they all are always too short, especially looking back on the day of departure, heh. Her trips here, though (with the exception of the supposed-to-be-quick-but-usually-an-hour-or-more pop-ins at my office), give us more time together since we're both off of work, instead of my trips to see her where she doesn't get as much time off of work, so there's that. It was also great because my in-laws visited us and got a whirlwind tour of a small part of the province, enough to tantalize their tastebuds and tempt them to return next summer, hopefully with girlyduck and elevea joining us. :)

I won't steal my wife's thunder and go into detail about our trip, other than to say it was fantastic, and many, many pictures were taken, a small sample of which she's already posted to her journal. The only downside was, of course, having to part ways once again, but as she so wisely pointed out this will be the last time we have to part like this from NL, at least for a long term / unspecified period of separation. Which does make it easier, and I do feel much better now after having a bit of a hard time this morning. I do regret not checking out of the hotel when we both left for the airport, though; the hotel at which we stayed is literally just up the road from the airport, a 1m drive or so away, you can see the terminal from the parking lot even. To maximize together time I figured I'd leave my things here, and I'd check out after she left, but that was kind of a mistake. One I won't have to relive or anything, as it was pointed out earlier, no more partings like this from NL-side, but after composing myself as best I could and leaving the airport, when I came back into the room and smelled her shampoo (the shower / bathroom is immediately to your right as soon as you enter the room we had) I kind of hyperventilated for a little bit. >.> I'm alright now, though, and was a few minutes after sitting down and collecting myself, heh, but yeah, coming back to a now-empty hotel room and ... yeah, it wasn't the smartest move yours truly has ever made.

After a quick chat with onlyonechoice on my phone (btw, sorry I left so abruptly but the battery died on me! :() I rested for a bit, then grabbed a quick shower and now here I am, typing a longer-than-originally-intended entry in the lobby, whoops. Better get going, thank heavens for my car charger so I can shortly use my phone again. Hmm, my wife is probably already in Halifax now, actually, so I should go and check for texts, if they were allowed to send any (I don't think they were deplaning in Hali, hmm).

So yes, sorry for anyone who read all of this rambling, haha, but it feels good to get it out, so that's a good thing, yes? Yes. :)

Ok, it's technically Sunday afternoon but still, the coming down part applies. Or, well, to be specific it's more accurately going up that's got me feeling down, heh. I knew it was going to happen but I guess part of me hoped I'd been able to break even or something, but no, according to the same Wii scale I always use I was up 0.3kg this week. Which isn't a lot, it almost negates the 0.4kg I was down last week so it's not a complete backslide or anything, but it still sucks and it's still demoralizing.

Of course there's no one else to blame but myself - I ate very poorly this week, which I can partly blame on being in Court every single day of the week (save Monday which was a holiday) and having to eat on the road. I probably could've eaten better but I'm an expert at convincing myself that I've "earned" or "deserve" less-than-healthy food due to the stress and strain of being in the middle of a trial or something equally as taxing on me. I also over indulged this weekend when my sister came home, which involved picking up more snacks than I usually would for a weekend and even a late night (~10pm, not uber late but still) 6" sandwich from Subway on Friday night, and it all adds up.

The good news, though, is that I am out of snacks, heh, and this is something I can nip in the bud by, you know, not eating like a pig this week and not buying any more junk food. Depending on how my office hours look (I think I'm mainly in the office all week, with the exception of a court appearance tomorrow and Friday) I'll hopefully be able to get home in time a few evenings this week and actually work out for a change. That'll help since I've been coasting by and losing the little weight I've lost so far solely by restricting my junk food intake and not by actually working it off. I'm taking this as a good kick in the rear to get my butt back into gear and to start working for what I want instead of just hoping for it to happen, and hopefully by this time next week I'll be back on the right side of the +/- result.

( Cut for LOTRO stuff 99% of you don't care / know about XD )

My plans for today basically involve grabbing a shower as soon as I finish typing this and then popping into the office for a few hours to catch up on things. I've got a stubborn client who actually calls me at home, repeatedly, and just does not get that I cannot work 24 hours a day. >.< Or, well, I could, but I don't want to completely overstress myself and have a heart attack, which they don't seem to get. *sighs* So I want to get the work done for them so they can leave me the hell alone, and I've gotta prep for tomorrow as well, which won't take very long at all but I still want to do it. It should actually be a nice week at work, at least relative to the last few, which will be a welcome change. Other than that, I'll try and play a little Red Dead Redemption - which, by the way, is amazing - and maybe read a little before hopping in game to meet my wife for a bit before going to sleep.

Hope everyone had a nice weekend! :)

So glad this past weekend was a long one because today was so emotionally draining it wasn't even funny. Day Two of the trial wasn't bad, it actually went rather well, but I received an unfavourable decision in another criminal matter at 9:30am before the trial continued that just knocked the wind out of me and I never did get it back. I can't get into the reasons why here, but yeah, it's going to have a lasting effect, sadly. Then there was a really tough bail hearing we had to wait for (it bumped us as the accused was arrested last night and has to be brought before a judge within 24 hours so it couldn't wait) which featured a very sympathetic and very, very upset mother taking the stand on the accused's behalf, but to no avail, which... all the lawyers there pretty much knew that it was a lost cause, but yeah, still rough to watch. And it cut a major chunk out of our afternoon, having started at 1:30 and continuing on until 3:15, and we had to stop at 4-ish so we got less than an hour in this afternoon. >.< Tomorrow we have the whole day slated again (like today) but there's some civil matters at 9:30am first. Our court is so, so, so overtaxed, there's not time at all - while talking about possible dates to continue our matter today (we will need it, especially with interruptions like we had today) the clerk mentioned a date in effing September. September. At this rate my client may very well likely have spent whatever he will be sentenced to before the trial's over and may just get time served. x.x

But yes, just wanted to vent a little. It was a rough day and there's a lot of other courtwork waiting for me at the end of the week, too, that I'm just not going to have time to prep for, or at least not as much as I want. Rar. Here's hoping we get a lot done tomorrow at least.

So very tired, don't know why I haven't collapsed into bed yet, but will be very shortly. Just thought I'd make a quick post while I was thinking about things, 'cause tomorrow I'll either forget or get caught up in other things (may go to work for a bit, have a huuuuge trial starting on Friday that's got me worried), so yeah.

Just been wondering lately about things, everything and nothing, it's hard to put a finger on it but I've just been on a downswing a lot lately. And... I have no real idea what a mid-life crisis is, haha, or when it would sink in (I don't think I'm half-way through life at 33, I hope not anyway x.x), and it's nothing that I haven't really felt before, I guess, just longer and in more depth, I suppose, would be the words? I dunno. I've just been down in a hole lately and there's been some reasons I can point to for it; work has been such a bitch lately, and while I have this weekend off to catch my breath - even though I could be working tomorrow to prevent future calamities / catch up - it'll get like that again this week, not to mention my stupid, stupid favourite team breaking my heart once again, bickering with my sister a bit (though that's fixed up now and was never really that bad anyway), etc. There's other things too that I can't really quantify, even though I've tried to, and I dunno. I may check some things out online but I know just how bad of an idea that can be too, trying to diagnose / gather info on one's self from the internet. XD

At any rate, yeah, if I haven't been around or posting much that's partly why. I have been trying to do the song meme each day or thereabouts to catch up on posting in general instead of just autotweeting every day, and for the most part I've done that, though I usually don't have much more to say than that. I'll try to get better, though, maybe typing things out in here will help, and that'd be a good thing. Which is why I'm making this post, if that makes sense.

Annnnnnnd when I start asking if things make sense then it's time to sleep, also because it's after 4:30am and while I don't have anywhere to be tomorrow, strictly speaking, it's getting light out and that makes it much harder to sleep, so. Good night. :)

It's a little after 5pm and it's almost completely dark, and my light is the only one on in the entire house. Not sure where everyone else is, no tvs on, nothing, just complete darkness and quiet. My back's hurting a little too all of a sudden, ow. Way to not cheer me up, Sunday afternoon.

Think I'll head out to the office, which isn't going to help either, but maybe getting some work done will be a good thing. As no one's around I'll likely pick up something to eat outside, too, which probably shouldn't cheer me up but it will, shh.

[eta] Definitely pinched a nerve or wrenched something in my upper back, when I got in the car to drive over here it hurt to look over my shoulder / turn too far to the left or right, wth. I was fine until I put on a sweater to leave the house; pretty sad if that's what caused it. Out of shape much? x.x