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canadiandiamond) wrote2010-05-16 04:37 am
canadiandiamond) wrote2010-05-16 04:37 am
tiiiiiiiiiiiiiired
So very tired, don't know why I haven't collapsed into bed yet, but will be very shortly. Just thought I'd make a quick post while I was thinking about things, 'cause tomorrow I'll either forget or get caught up in other things (may go to work for a bit, have a huuuuge trial starting on Friday that's got me worried), so yeah.
Just been wondering lately about things, everything and nothing, it's hard to put a finger on it but I've just been on a downswing a lot lately. And... I have no real idea what a mid-life crisis is, haha, or when it would sink in (I don't think I'm half-way through life at 33, I hope not anyway x.x), and it's nothing that I haven't really felt before, I guess, just longer and in more depth, I suppose, would be the words? I dunno. I've just been down in a hole lately and there's been some reasons I can point to for it; work has been such a bitch lately, and while I have this weekend off to catch my breath - even though I could be working tomorrow to prevent future calamities / catch up - it'll get like that again this week, not to mention my stupid, stupid favourite team breaking my heart once again, bickering with my sister a bit (though that's fixed up now and was never really that bad anyway), etc. There's other things too that I can't really quantify, even though I've tried to, and I dunno. I may check some things out online but I know just how bad of an idea that can be too, trying to diagnose / gather info on one's self from the internet. XD
At any rate, yeah, if I haven't been around or posting much that's partly why. I have been trying to do the song meme each day or thereabouts to catch up on posting in general instead of just autotweeting every day, and for the most part I've done that, though I usually don't have much more to say than that. I'll try to get better, though, maybe typing things out in here will help, and that'd be a good thing. Which is why I'm making this post, if that makes sense.
Annnnnnnd when I start asking if things make sense then it's time to sleep, also because it's after 4:30am and while I don't have anywhere to be tomorrow, strictly speaking, it's getting light out and that makes it much harder to sleep, so. Good night. :)
Just been wondering lately about things, everything and nothing, it's hard to put a finger on it but I've just been on a downswing a lot lately. And... I have no real idea what a mid-life crisis is, haha, or when it would sink in (I don't think I'm half-way through life at 33, I hope not anyway x.x), and it's nothing that I haven't really felt before, I guess, just longer and in more depth, I suppose, would be the words? I dunno. I've just been down in a hole lately and there's been some reasons I can point to for it; work has been such a bitch lately, and while I have this weekend off to catch my breath - even though I could be working tomorrow to prevent future calamities / catch up - it'll get like that again this week, not to mention my stupid, stupid favourite team breaking my heart once again, bickering with my sister a bit (though that's fixed up now and was never really that bad anyway), etc. There's other things too that I can't really quantify, even though I've tried to, and I dunno. I may check some things out online but I know just how bad of an idea that can be too, trying to diagnose / gather info on one's self from the internet. XD
At any rate, yeah, if I haven't been around or posting much that's partly why. I have been trying to do the song meme each day or thereabouts to catch up on posting in general instead of just autotweeting every day, and for the most part I've done that, though I usually don't have much more to say than that. I'll try to get better, though, maybe typing things out in here will help, and that'd be a good thing. Which is why I'm making this post, if that makes sense.
Annnnnnnd when I start asking if things make sense then it's time to sleep, also because it's after 4:30am and while I don't have anywhere to be tomorrow, strictly speaking, it's getting light out and that makes it much harder to sleep, so. Good night. :)